[ That wasn't how it sounded, but she has to confirm it. One way or another, she has to know how he really feels. She looks up at him with her turquoise eyes, taking a step closer to him. ]
[There aren't many things he struggles with as badly as he does with the weight of his own feelings. They're cumbersome things, things he'd rather not balance when Ann's feelings are heavy enough a load, but alas.
Alas, he owes the girl he loves a window into his soul that he'd fully anticipated never opening again. Scrubbing at the back of his neck, Akira takes hold of Ann's hand and laces their fingers together, guiding her through the quaint apartment and into his dingy little bedroom.]
Past, present, and future. I've loved you for a while now.
[Akira's bedroom door eases open with a groan. He guides Ann inside, the room cleaned and straightened out where once it had been a dark, dusty mess. The foul weather's robbed them of electricity, and so Akira keeps a bundle of candles glowing on the nightstand beside his bed. He sits her down on that creaky old mattress and settles beside her.]
I thought it would be easier if I didn't. Then you wouldn't have to worry about this island's demands.
[ This room is nothing like Ren's room at Leblanc, but it's got kind of the same energy, doesn't it? An abandoned space made livable again, sparsely decorated at first, but she's sure he'll soon begin to decorate it with tokens and gifts--all the little items his friends will give him.
She lets him lead her inside, sitting on the bed when he nudges her. Her body leans in towards his, both out of affection for him and to seek the warmth of his body. ]
What about what I think? You can't just make that kind of decision on your own without even asking me how I feel about it first. I'm not gonna lie to you and say I haven't been with a couple of people here on the island, but I don't feel the same way about them that I do about you.
[ His admission of love is an undeniable rush. It's so strong that it makes her shiver just a bit, as if from lingering cold. ]
I--I love you, too! [ Why does she sound so angry? ] I really love you! Like, really really.
[Ah, he's feeling the love like one feels an anvil collide with their skull. Ann sidles closer and Akira leans back to nab the woolen blanket on his bed, tossing it around their shoulders. For good measure, he threads his hand around Ann's waist and brings her just a little closer.]
If you really really love me, I believe you. [But do feel free to add more reallys for emphasis.] And I'm grateful. The idea of losing you was devastating.
[ She grumbles a little but when he drapes his blanket around her she seems pacified. He’ll feel her relax gradually, letting her body rest against his with a low sigh. The lingering sting of his words is starting to fade, and she loves him enough that it’s easy to forgive him for being a dumb teenage boy when he holds her like this. ]
[That's better, isn't it? No yelling, no shouting, no threatening him with the daggers hidden in those pretty turquoise eyes. Tugging that blanket taut around them, Akira nuzzles into the soft sweep of Ann's hair, encourages her to rest her cheek against his shoulder.]
It's a little cold in here. Sorry about that. We lost power around the time the blizzard began.
[ If her meaning isn’t clear enough, she leans in just a bit more and kisses the pulse in his throat. She won’t push for anything, of course, but it’s an olive branch, as if to say that she’s there for him if and when he needs her. ]
[And she'll feel his pulse kick up a notch beneath her pliant lips, laughter warm and rumbling in his throat. That's an olive branch he'll happily reach out towards, dancing the tips of his fingers along the curve of Ann's jaw and leading her up into a kiss.]
Let's lay down. This bed's much warmer when you're in it.
[ She kisses Akira with a contented sigh, slipping out of the borrowed coat and scarf before lying down with him, pillowing her head on his shoulder. This really is much better; it feels like an immense weight has been lifted from her shoulders. ]
You're such a sweet talker. [ Not that she minds. ] God, I'm so glad that's over with, though. I've been so stressed out--even eating crepes hasn't helped me feel better.
[The relief's palpable and it's a feeling not exclusive to Ann, the faintest of sighs managing to slip past Akira's lips. Letting his guard down will take some time, but he has no intention of keeping Ann at a distance regardless of the discrepancy between their memories.
In time, they'll bridge that gap once more. There's no need to rush it for the time being.]
So you were stress eating.
[Ma'am, this heart of his can only hold so many daggers. Mouthing against her temple, Akira peppers her with little apologetic kisses.]
Poor thing. Looks like you won't be eating sweets for a while...
[Gosh, that sure does sound like a threat to take her sweets away! Is Akira serious?]
[ Spoken in a sweet, lilting voice. Ann gives his side a little pinch. Not too hard, of course, since Akira wouldn't be enough of a fool to try and deprive her of her sweet sweet crepes.
Threats aside, Ann basks in the kisses Akira gives her, nuzzling under his jaw like a kitten. ]
Hey... can I ask you some questions? Questions about us, I mean.
Maybe I'll help myself to some desserts in your stead.
[Curling around her, Akira skims the very tips of his fingers along the rise of her hips, then lower, lower, lower...
...just kidding. Teasing Ann is so much sweeter than any dessert. Akira shuffles around in bed a bit, spooning his lovely lady and resting his chin on the crown of her head.]
[ Ann whines softly at Akira's teasing, but she'll let it go for now. Easier to talk when they aren't fooling around, anyway. Once he settles down, she pulls his arms around her and snuggles back into the curve of his body. ]
I guess... when did you first know that you liked me as more than a friend...? Did you make the first move or did I? How long were we dating before you came here?
[And really, it is. When did his feelings for Ann go from platonic to decidedly less friends-only? Akira considers the particulars with a muted hum.]
It was gradual. I remember the little things, like our hands grazing each other's on missions, bumping into you while stumbling through the dark. Small things. Things that made me realize how soft your skin was and how beautiful you looked up close.
[Arms tucked up beneath the swell of her breasts, Akira gives Ann a little squeeze.]
After a while, it became impossible not to think about you. I nearly flunked my exams because of you. [Teasing, teasing. Anyhow–] We'd been dating for several months. Sojiro had asked me what I wanted for my birthday, and because I wanted you, that's the day I asked you out. You were the best present I'd ever been given.
For me it was kind of like that, too. I think it started that day when you chased me down, remember? I thought, "what's his deal?" and "why does he care so much?" It was nice just to have someone to talk to, I guess--someone who would listen to me without judging me. I didn't realize it until we were casing Madarame's palace, but... there was never an opportunity to bring it up. Then, when we visited with Shiho that last time up on the roof of the school, and I was so upset, and you said something like "The team will always be there for you."
[ She tries not to sound sad when she sighs quietly, but it's hard to forget how that moment felt. ]
In that moment, I thought I'd give almost anything for you--no, for him--to say he would always be there for me. I never pressed the issue after that, and he never talked about it with us, but we all spend so much time together that it was easy to figure out when he started seeing someone.
[ Covering her face with her hands, Ann groans. ]
God, what's wrong with me? Why am I even worried about that anymore when I'm here with you right now? I'm such an idiot sometimes.
[The team will always be there for you. So Ann recalls, but Akira doesn't remember their conversation going that way. Not quite.
For a good, long moment, Akira is quiet. Quiet enough to hear his breaths mingle with Ann's. Quiet enough to hear the steady tempo of her heartbeat. When he finally speaks, his inflection is flat, his voice eerily quiet. Still... the words themselves are weighty for all that they represent. Immensely so.]
You were so afraid of being left alone. When I saw you crying, something came over me. [All those pent up feelings overwhelmed me. From that point on, there was no hiding how he felt. No intention to, and certainly no desire.] "You have me." Those were the words I said to you that day.
I won't allow you to be lonely anymore, Ann. In return... please take good care of me.
[ She's still for a moment, going quiet just to listen to Akira as he speaks. As much as she wishes he'd said those words to her back on that day, there's a kind of catharsis to hearing him say them now. He really does want to be with her--to hold her and kiss her and be a real couple, and all the things that come with that.
Akira has a pretty tight grip on her, but Ann glances back at him over her shoulder, wriggling until she's able to turn herself around to face him. ]
I'll always take good care of you. Every day.
[ She touches his face gently, brushing his hair away from his forehead so she can lean in to plant a little kiss there. ]
[Akira's hold loosens just enough to let Ann turn, just enough to offer himself up to receive that little kiss. He doesn't quite manage to catch the yawn that ekes out past his lips, wispy and soft. He'd say it's been a day, but lord knows it's been rough since he got here. But with Ann content, that's one less thing to worry about.]
I'll look forward to that. Will you serve me breakfast in nothing but a frilly apron?
[Ah, but don't fuss, he's only kidding. Unless...?]
Suppose I can live with that. Just don't expect me to let you stay dressed afterwards.
[Ah, Ann's chest is so warm and comforting. Akira nestles in close and listens to the calming thrum of her heartbeat. This isn't fair, ma'am. There's no way he'll be able to stay conscious under conditions like these.]
Sleep with me.
[He'll leave that one up to Ann's interpretation. Still, Akira's request might have been harder to decipher if his eyes weren't already closed, his glasses slipped halfway off his face.]
[ Ann gives a little snort as she begins to run her fingers through his hair. Though there's definitely more than one interpretation to his request, Akira's half-asleep already. She'll see him the rest of the way there. ]
Okay. I'll stay, I promise. We can talk more in the morning.
[ Carefully, she plucks his glasses off his face and folds them, setting them aside so they don't poke her in the chest. ]
[He could get used to this all over again. At the end of the day, Ann will always be Ann, doting and kind. Akira can't help but lapse into his comfort zone where only he and the girl he loves are free to tread, his breaths slowing to a long, meandering crawl.]
...in the morning, let's go out for a bit. Just you and me.
[There's one last thing he has left to do before they've Officially™ kissed and made up.]
... Sure. Whatever you wanna do, I'll go with you.
[ Even though it's cold as snowballs out there.
As Akira begins to doze, Ann feels herself growing more drowsy by the minute. She shoots a quick text to the boys not to wait up for her, nails working over Akira's scalp. ]
[Akira's on a mission here, snowballs be damned. With Ann agreeing to his silly little request, Akira lets himself drift off to sleep, the beating of her heart ensuring he'll sleep soundly through the night.
Rather, it should have. Late into the night, Akira startles awake, jolting upright and scanning the room with wild eyes. Right... he's in his bedroom. While he hasn't quite settled into it, he's right where he should be. Still, expecting to palm the mattress when he puts his hand down and groping Ann instead makes him startle all over again. Right. She's also in his room.
Scrunching forward, Akira rubs his temples. Another nightmare... Hopefully he didn't wake Ann with all his tossing and turning.]
[ But of course he did. Even if they'd been sleeping side-by-side rather than him cozied up on top of her, she'd have woken up with that abrupt movement.
Rubbing the sleep out of her eyes, Ann props herself up on her elbow and peers at him through the darkness of the room. The wind is still howling outside, but his eyes seem a little too wide for that to be the reason he woke up. ]
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Date: 2020-12-07 04:31 am (UTC)[ That wasn't how it sounded, but she has to confirm it. One way or another, she has to know how he really feels. She looks up at him with her turquoise eyes, taking a step closer to him. ]
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Date: 2020-12-07 04:42 am (UTC)[There aren't many things he struggles with as badly as he does with the weight of his own feelings. They're cumbersome things, things he'd rather not balance when Ann's feelings are heavy enough a load, but alas.
Alas, he owes the girl he loves a window into his soul that he'd fully anticipated never opening again. Scrubbing at the back of his neck, Akira takes hold of Ann's hand and laces their fingers together, guiding her through the quaint apartment and into his dingy little bedroom.]
Past, present, and future. I've loved you for a while now.
[Akira's bedroom door eases open with a groan. He guides Ann inside, the room cleaned and straightened out where once it had been a dark, dusty mess. The foul weather's robbed them of electricity, and so Akira keeps a bundle of candles glowing on the nightstand beside his bed. He sits her down on that creaky old mattress and settles beside her.]
I thought it would be easier if I didn't. Then you wouldn't have to worry about this island's demands.
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Date: 2020-12-07 05:11 am (UTC)She lets him lead her inside, sitting on the bed when he nudges her. Her body leans in towards his, both out of affection for him and to seek the warmth of his body. ]
What about what I think? You can't just make that kind of decision on your own without even asking me how I feel about it first. I'm not gonna lie to you and say I haven't been with a couple of people here on the island, but I don't feel the same way about them that I do about you.
[ His admission of love is an undeniable rush. It's so strong that it makes her shiver just a bit, as if from lingering cold. ]
I--I love you, too! [ Why does she sound so angry? ] I really love you! Like, really really.
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Date: 2020-12-07 03:23 pm (UTC)[Ah, he's feeling the love like one feels an anvil collide with their skull. Ann sidles closer and Akira leans back to nab the woolen blanket on his bed, tossing it around their shoulders. For good measure, he threads his hand around Ann's waist and brings her just a little closer.]
If you really really love me, I believe you. [But do feel free to add more reallys for emphasis.] And I'm grateful. The idea of losing you was devastating.
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Date: 2020-12-07 03:59 pm (UTC)[ She grumbles a little but when he drapes his blanket around her she seems pacified. He’ll feel her relax gradually, letting her body rest against his with a low sigh. The lingering sting of his words is starting to fade, and she loves him enough that it’s easy to forgive him for being a dumb teenage boy when he holds her like this. ]
You haven’t lost me. I promise.
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Date: 2020-12-07 04:06 pm (UTC)[That's better, isn't it? No yelling, no shouting, no threatening him with the daggers hidden in those pretty turquoise eyes. Tugging that blanket taut around them, Akira nuzzles into the soft sweep of Ann's hair, encourages her to rest her cheek against his shoulder.]
It's a little cold in here. Sorry about that. We lost power around the time the blizzard began.
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Date: 2020-12-07 08:25 pm (UTC)[ If her meaning isn’t clear enough, she leans in just a bit more and kisses the pulse in his throat. She won’t push for anything, of course, but it’s an olive branch, as if to say that she’s there for him if and when he needs her. ]
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Date: 2020-12-08 01:02 am (UTC)[And she'll feel his pulse kick up a notch beneath her pliant lips, laughter warm and rumbling in his throat. That's an olive branch he'll happily reach out towards, dancing the tips of his fingers along the curve of Ann's jaw and leading her up into a kiss.]
Let's lay down. This bed's much warmer when you're in it.
[I could use some comfort.]
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Date: 2020-12-08 01:36 am (UTC)You're such a sweet talker. [ Not that she minds. ] God, I'm so glad that's over with, though. I've been so stressed out--even eating crepes hasn't helped me feel better.
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Date: 2020-12-08 02:16 am (UTC)In time, they'll bridge that gap once more. There's no need to rush it for the time being.]
So you were stress eating.
[Ma'am, this heart of his can only hold so many daggers. Mouthing against her temple, Akira peppers her with little apologetic kisses.]
Poor thing. Looks like you won't be eating sweets for a while...
[Gosh, that sure does sound like a threat to take her sweets away! Is Akira serious?]
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Date: 2020-12-08 03:07 am (UTC)[ Spoken in a sweet, lilting voice. Ann gives his side a little pinch. Not too hard, of course, since Akira wouldn't be enough of a fool to try and deprive her of her sweet sweet crepes.
Threats aside, Ann basks in the kisses Akira gives her, nuzzling under his jaw like a kitten. ]
Hey... can I ask you some questions? Questions about us, I mean.
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Date: 2020-12-08 03:16 am (UTC)[Curling around her, Akira skims the very tips of his fingers along the rise of her hips, then lower, lower, lower...
...just kidding. Teasing Ann is so much sweeter than any dessert. Akira shuffles around in bed a bit, spooning his lovely lady and resting his chin on the crown of her head.]
Shoot.
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Date: 2020-12-08 03:36 am (UTC)I guess... when did you first know that you liked me as more than a friend...? Did you make the first move or did I? How long were we dating before you came here?
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Date: 2020-12-08 03:47 am (UTC)[And really, it is. When did his feelings for Ann go from platonic to decidedly less friends-only? Akira considers the particulars with a muted hum.]
It was gradual. I remember the little things, like our hands grazing each other's on missions, bumping into you while stumbling through the dark. Small things. Things that made me realize how soft your skin was and how beautiful you looked up close.
[Arms tucked up beneath the swell of her breasts, Akira gives Ann a little squeeze.]
After a while, it became impossible not to think about you. I nearly flunked my exams because of you. [Teasing, teasing. Anyhow–] We'd been dating for several months. Sojiro had asked me what I wanted for my birthday, and because I wanted you, that's the day I asked you out. You were the best present I'd ever been given.
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Date: 2020-12-10 04:41 am (UTC)[ She tries not to sound sad when she sighs quietly, but it's hard to forget how that moment felt. ]
In that moment, I thought I'd give almost anything for you--no, for him--to say he would always be there for me. I never pressed the issue after that, and he never talked about it with us, but we all spend so much time together that it was easy to figure out when he started seeing someone.
[ Covering her face with her hands, Ann groans. ]
God, what's wrong with me? Why am I even worried about that anymore when I'm here with you right now? I'm such an idiot sometimes.
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Date: 2020-12-11 01:36 am (UTC)For a good, long moment, Akira is quiet. Quiet enough to hear his breaths mingle with Ann's. Quiet enough to hear the steady tempo of her heartbeat. When he finally speaks, his inflection is flat, his voice eerily quiet. Still... the words themselves are weighty for all that they represent. Immensely so.]
You were so afraid of being left alone. When I saw you crying, something came over me. [All those pent up feelings overwhelmed me. From that point on, there was no hiding how he felt. No intention to, and certainly no desire.] "You have me." Those were the words I said to you that day.
I won't allow you to be lonely anymore, Ann. In return... please take good care of me.
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Date: 2020-12-13 07:42 pm (UTC)Akira has a pretty tight grip on her, but Ann glances back at him over her shoulder, wriggling until she's able to turn herself around to face him. ]
I'll always take good care of you. Every day.
[ She touches his face gently, brushing his hair away from his forehead so she can lean in to plant a little kiss there. ]
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Date: 2020-12-13 09:06 pm (UTC)I'll look forward to that. Will you serve me breakfast in nothing but a frilly apron?
[Ah, but don't fuss, he's only kidding. Unless...?]
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Date: 2020-12-13 10:44 pm (UTC)[ She gooses his side lightly, rolling onto her back and pulling him with her so he can rest his head on her chest. ]
You sound sleepy. Just relax, okay? I'll be here when you wake up.
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Date: 2020-12-13 10:56 pm (UTC)[Ah, Ann's chest is so warm and comforting. Akira nestles in close and listens to the calming thrum of her heartbeat. This isn't fair, ma'am. There's no way he'll be able to stay conscious under conditions like these.]
Sleep with me.
[He'll leave that one up to Ann's interpretation. Still, Akira's request might have been harder to decipher if his eyes weren't already closed, his glasses slipped halfway off his face.]
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Date: 2020-12-13 11:05 pm (UTC)Okay. I'll stay, I promise. We can talk more in the morning.
[ Carefully, she plucks his glasses off his face and folds them, setting them aside so they don't poke her in the chest. ]
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Date: 2020-12-13 11:20 pm (UTC)...in the morning, let's go out for a bit. Just you and me.
[There's one last thing he has left to do before they've Officially™ kissed and made up.]
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Date: 2020-12-13 11:28 pm (UTC)[ Even though it's cold as snowballs out there.
As Akira begins to doze, Ann feels herself growing more drowsy by the minute. She shoots a quick text to the boys not to wait up for her, nails working over Akira's scalp. ]
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Date: 2020-12-13 11:37 pm (UTC)Rather, it should have. Late into the night, Akira startles awake, jolting upright and scanning the room with wild eyes. Right... he's in his bedroom. While he hasn't quite settled into it, he's right where he should be. Still, expecting to palm the mattress when he puts his hand down and groping Ann instead makes him startle all over again. Right. She's also in his room.
Scrunching forward, Akira rubs his temples. Another nightmare... Hopefully he didn't wake Ann with all his tossing and turning.]
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Date: 2020-12-13 11:43 pm (UTC)Rubbing the sleep out of her eyes, Ann props herself up on her elbow and peers at him through the darkness of the room. The wind is still howling outside, but his eyes seem a little too wide for that to be the reason he woke up. ]
What's wrong?
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